I just wanted to say a few things. First, thank you so much to the anonymous people who read my blog from all over the world. It means a lot to me that you would read my story and poetry. I hope that I’ve explained some things about trauma that may have been helpful. It helped me a lot to get my story out and to write it down. Your support has been invaluable in my healing journey. Sometimes the kindness of strangers can really make a difference, and I’m grateful for all of you.
Second, I’m shutting this blog down to invitation only. This is because I’ve had at least 6 people from my past follow me. (I’m referring to those I’ve blocked and cut contact with). They basically stalked me online and found my blog, which is absolutely pathetic and just proves my point as to why I don’t want them in my life anymore. I don’t regret anything I’ve said, as it was essential for me to reflect on past abuse and harassment. However, I don’t feel like these people deserve access to me in any way. If you’re one of these people, ask yourself what it is you need to examine about your life and behavior that makes you feel it’s ok to do this. In the past, I was a magnet for abusers, narcissists, borderlines etc. I’m done with all these people and their toxicity. I saw a good quote that said, “You may not be responsible for who you attract, but you are responsible for who you entertain.”
If you’re a part of my past, you will not have access to this blog anymore. I’ve even had unhealthy individuals create fake profiles to follow me on Instgram and here. It’s sad that people are so bad with boundaries and lack respect for others. You claim you have changed or aren’t abusive, but your behaviors say otherwise. Actions always speak louder than words.
And finally, to those people in my life who are merely acquaintances, I have no ill will towards you. If you decide that things I’m writing about have something to do with you, it doesn’t. Yes, these few sentences are directed at you, but my blog in general is not. Neither is the majority of this message, it was written for people in my past. I’m going to share another quote:
“As human beings, we are all susceptible to what psychologists refer to as ‘subjective validation’; that is, if we expect to see correspondences and connections between two complex stimuli or events we are often able to find them, even if they are not really there.”
This is why people think zodiacs are real. It’s also why people think I’m writing about them, because they want to see the connections. If I barely know you, chances are it’s not about you. The people I wrote about know who they are, because I was pretty clear about it. I don’t have a problem with you, I just don’t really want to share my thoughts and feelings with you either. I can’t believe I have to be this specific, but if I haven’t interacted with you on Instagram in the past week, you don’t occupy my mind. I don’t play games online or in real life. I’d actually prefer to share my thoughts with strangers because then I’m writing to the void of the internet and people who will never meet me. I’ll probably write a book at some point, with the awareness that anyone could read it. This blog has been good practice.
So I’ll continue to write, but I’m limiting my audience to people I trust. I’d like to thank the people who have been supportive and kind, this includes strangers, acquaintances, and friends. I’m grateful for every stranger and supporter who read my blog, but it’s time for me to move on to new goals. I’ve told my story, and it’s time to live in the present. I hope everyone finds their peace. Goodbye.